bendog wrote:
Whilst I agree with chay and jacksdad, I also don't think it is always important to put a label on behaviour, unless it's going to be helpful for you. At the end of the day, whether it's abuse, co-dependence, her mental health issues (has Borderline Personality Disorder been considered?) or whatever else, it doesn't really matter, neither does it really matter why your mother is like she is, it may help you understand her behaviour, but then it's all too easy to feel sorry for her, and rationalise that she can't help it, and feel that therefore it shouldn't upset you. All that really matters is that it has a detrimental impact on you and your siblings, so you need to find a way to deal with it.
I agree and disagree. it all depends how you use the info a diagnosis gives you. for me it helps be reminded that the person isn't "right", they are sick. that the problem isn't me, its them. That what I thought was normal, wasn't. And it also can help with developing more targeted strategies for when you do have to deal with the person in question face to face.
I actually don't think there is anything wrong with feeling sorry for someone who is acting "badly" due to mental health issues. empathy is an important clue that you aren't the sick one. it's only an issue when you allow that feeling to rationalize away the behavior or allowed it to suck you back into their world in unhealthy ways. I do feel bad for my mom, her reality/world has got to be miserable. But just because I can feel empathy doesn't mean I will allow her to walk over me. And if that means for now I don't have contact, that is what I have to do.
Interesting that you would mention BPD, it is what we strongly believe is going on with my mom, and I have actually been wondering about WuFWuf's mom as well. BPD and Narcissistic issues sometimes go hand in hand. In my case, we may never get an official diagnosis. But it's been strongly suggested by two different therapists. with of course the understanding they haven't actually been able to talk with her directly and do official diagnosis.
I didn't want to bring up BPD without more info for two reasons. One, I am not a therapist/physiologist and really didn't have enough info to suggest it. I looked up Histrionic and it also does seem fitting to what has been shared. And two, Borderline Personality Disorder was named before it was better understood. The unfortunate result is that the name, Borderline Personality Disorder sometimes leads to a incorrect "mental" picture of what is going one with the person in question. Which is why the acronym is often used, BPD, or just BP verses the full name when discussing people with or effected by people with it.
On the BPD front though, Randi Kreger wrote some really, really good books on BPD and has a really good web site
http://www.bpdcentral.com/
WufWuf, I admire the risk you took reaching out. Don't worry about the "picture" you think you may or may not have painted about your siblings. so far what you have shared tracks as normal for what you are going through. some in my family clued in faster than others, but we are all pretty much on the same page now.
Somehow the idea of her knowing I need therapy makes my skin crawl as I know how much she'd enjoy that. I'll see how it goes at FT and then figure out what I want to do from there.
I completely get this.
Something I've noticed is that since I agreed to go to the FT which means I'll be seeing my mother on Wednesday, my anxiety has shot up. I had nightmares about her last night and my stomach is in knots today, I think I should take this as a sign that whatever bad feelings I have around having no contact with her I have far more about having contact with her.
just like we advise that our dogs need breaks from what stress them for a "short" while, you need a break from what is stressing you. this is normal, natural, necessary and though far easier to say than do, nothing to feel guilty about.